Feed the Birds

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The summer between my sophomore and junior year of college I lived in the Capitol Hill area of Seattle, in anticipation of starting at Seattle U in the fall.  Meanwhile I worked at the Federal Building downtown for the Vietnam Vets of America.  I was also taking some classes I needed at University of Washington.  Translation, I became a master of bus schedules that summer, riding the bus all over Seattle, with the bonus of a leg in a walking cast.

I immensely enjoyed my time spent riding the buses in the pleasant summer weather.  I would use the time to read some of my assignments, but often, I found myself people watching. One particular gentleman stood out from the rest.  People gave the tall muscular African-American man a wide berth.  He often sat alone on the bus, and though I never saw him harass or bother anyone, he talked to himself, mumbling obscenities while he listened to his headset.  He dressed neatly, often wearing shorts and a tank top, along with white tennis shoes and socks, the anti-thesis to some of the other people who rode the bus.  Whenever he got on the bus, he would drag a small carry-on suitcase with an igloo cooler bungeed to the top.  I would often wonder what was in the luggage he dragged all over Seattle.  I never imagined curiosity would be satisfied, nor would I have dreamed up what was actually in the cooler, either.

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It was a warm, sunny day and due to a doctor’s appointment, because of the aforementioned cast, I had taken a different bus line than usual, and I was now waiting to catch my bus up Capitol Hill to go home.  I remember looking up at the clear sunny sky, and then at the parking lot nearby full of high-end cars and thinking to myself how strange it was, there seemed to be so many birds hanging around.  Literally hundreds of seagulls, pigeons, and even ravens sat on walls, light poles and even on the top of the building of this one bank parking lot.  Shrugging and looking up, I saw a bus coming, but it was not mine.  Mine was the number 10.  I sat back down on the bus stop bench, as my ankle throbbed horribly in the walking cast after the session with the doctor.  Thankfully I would only have to wear it for another month, the break was slowly healing after six months.  I looked up in surprise as the gentleman with the cooler climbed off the bus, usual luggage in tow.

Without acknowledging me on the bench, he lugged his suitcase and cooler to the driveway of the parking lot.  The birds immediately swarmed at his appearance.  He opened the cooler, reaching in and pulling out bags of bread and bird seed.  He threw it into the parking lot, on top of all the nice cars, all the while shouting the obscenities he usually (I’m presuming) muttered only under his breath.  The birds eagerly gobbled up the offering, in the process defecating all over the vehicles in the lot.  He did this for several minutes, unloading a few bags of bread and bird seed, then he closed his cooler, re-strapped it to the suitcase and waited for the bus which now approached.  We both got on the bus, and he resumed his normal continence of sitting quietly and muttering to himself while listening to his music.

Admittedly, all I could think of was the lady from the Mary Poppins movie, singing, “Feed the Birds.”

 

From then on, whenever I saw him on the bus, I couldn’t help but smile.  While I am certain the people who owned the cars in the parking lot didn’t appreciate his antics, that had to be one of the funniest, clever things I had ever witnessed.  I often wondered what other places he visited and fed the birds, and why he did it.  I will probably never know.

Putting Myself “Out There”

Blogging and Getting Out There

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The cabin in Chicken, AK

I have been reading some great books lately about growing your platform as an author and creating a social media base.  I realize there is a certain irony, sitting in a remote cabin with no electricity, internet, running water, or indoor plumbing because you like to get away from people and social media; trying to learn about how to build a social media presence and get people to care about writing you’ve been tossing in the corner for years.  But I digress.  I have been reading and studying, in particular, Jane Friedman’s the Business of Being a Writer, and Rachel Thompson’s 30-Day Book Marketing Challenge.  I have always enjoyed writing, and it only occurred to me recently, that I should try to get what I write published.  When I decided to give it a try, I knew I needed to learn all I could about what it might take.  There’s a lot of great advice and insight out there, but what strikes me as interesting or maybe odd, is the level of resistance to good advice. Especially on selling yourself.  In particular, there’s an overarching fear that doing anything other than working on your art is somehow taking precious time away from what could be your masterpiece.  This in turn could make you miss your magical window or muse and be shut out forever.  I decided to write this blog on my thoughts on what didn’t realize until now was such a huge issue.

Video of phase III blow in the arctic, taken from the front door of camp

I work providing engineering support to an electrical power grid that sits on the Beaufort Sea, distributing power in one of the harshest climates on the planet.  I have seen ambient temperatures in excess of -65 degrees with a wind chill of -80, when outside work comes to a complete halt because frost bite occurs in less than five minutes.  At the same time, loss of electricity means loss of production which means loss of revenue.  A key factor of my job is being able to eloquently state the technical aspects of a problem and why it needs to be solved to a person sitting 800 miles away in Anchorage or even thousands of miles away in London.  This person may have no technical background whatsoever and has never donned a pair of steel toed boots or a hard hat in their life, but they control the purse strings. I must convince them that my problem is worth giving money to without losing them in the technical weeds or being so vague that they do not buy into my credibility on the subject matter.

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Sunrise and sunset during the arctic winter.

Every time I sit down and create my argument, I refine my writing skills more.  Sometimes it is just a smidge, learning to use a better word or phrase to express my full meaning.  Sometimes it is learning to when to use better brevity when the situation calls for it.  Other times it is learning how to read my audience and tailor my writing specifically to what they want and need from me.  Then there are other times, it is admittedly nothing more than getting one more task off my plate, so that I can turn my full attention to what I really enjoy.

Refining my Argument

I can almost hear the can of worms crack open with a loud hiss as I write this, but I am going to give it a go.  One of the things that we as women are often accused of in our writing and I will openly and freely admit that I am guilty of: rambling.  In technical writing and making presentations to someone whom you are trying to convince to give you money for a problem, this can be detrimental.  Think about it, when you are pitching your book, they want it short and sweet.  It took me a long time to get to the point of learning how to get to the point, and just deliver the message.  I can thank some great mentors for helping me refine my speech and my writing, so that eyes did not keep glazing over when I started to talk.  My presentations became more effective, my technical papers and emails clearer and concise.  I got what I wanted professionally and personally with far more ease.  I was taken seriously as an engineer.  I do my best to provide this same type of guidance to the engineers I currently mentor, who most of the time, hate writing.

Targeting your Audience

I am a geek.  My husband is a geek.  Get the two of us together, and we can sit for hours talking about our respective career fields.  His career field is Corrosion and Ultra-sonics, specializing in Non-destructive testing.  I have a Bachelors in Electrical Engineering with a Masters in Power Systems.  Believe it or not, there is incredible overlap between the two fields due to the underlying principles of physics and magnetics.  Get the two of us together and we can geek out for hours about hysteresis and ferro resonance in different materials.  In fact, this sums up our first date.  Right now, some of you are probably thinking, nerd, cough, nerd. And you’re not wrong.  I embrace it proudly, and I thoroughly enjoy it.  What’s the inherent problem with getting too technical?  People outside your discipline don’t get it.  And if you need them to understand it, at least enough to help fix a problem, you had better learn to write and speak in a way that will make them care.  That is something both my fiction writing and my blog helps refine my technical writing.  It is a constant process of improving my language skills and helping people to understand more about what I do and how electricity and energy are produced and distributed.

Every time I put my pen to paper or begin to type on this keyboard the feedback loop in my brain picks up, and my writing improves a little more.  This is an undervalued area of the writing process that should get a lot more credit than it does.  Sure, if you are blogging or twittering just to avoid writing your novel or magazine article, that’s a whole separate issue.

Thanks for reading, I would love to hear your thoughts.

Chicken Run!

Here’s another short blog about some of our activities out in Chicken to give people an idea of what the heck it is we do out there when we’re “off the grid.” This blog was from our second winter trip in April of 2018, when we still had 2-3 feet of snow. Don’t worry DK, by the time your character gets there in June, the temperatures will be hitting 80-90, and the sun will be barely going down at night.

 

The cabin in Chicken, AK

 

We made it back from another trip to the cabin in Chicken, Alaska.  Not as cold as our last trip, getting down around zero at night, but sometimes hitting 35 or 40 degrees during the day.  Still quite a bit of snow, though it has melted down and is pretty compact now.  We were able to snow shoe in much easier this time, not sinking up to our hips in soft snow in 0-degree weather.  Unplugging once more, and spending my days reading and writing felt really good.

Breaking up the snow for water

But it is not all fun and leisure, we do have chores when we are out on the land.  Our biggest is stock piling/melting water.  Not only to drink, but to store for later in the summer for our plants.  Ray cuts up wood, so we can keep the fire going in our wood stove.  I spent lots of time, knee deep in ice and snow with a pick axe and shovel, loading corn snow into barrels for later in the spring when we won’t see a drop of rain in the arid region, with the exception of the occasional afternoon thunderstorm.  If we have to, we can get water from the RV Park in the “Town of Chicken,” but it is best to stock pile as much as we can from the snow melt in large 55-gallon barrels.

Floundering in the snow.

What are we watering?  Every year we bring hundreds of small ground cover plants and trees to resupply the barren landscape.  In 2004, 6.2 million acres of Alaska burned, the size of Vermont.  The largest of the fires was the Taylor Complex fire near our land.  That fire alone was 1.3 million acres.  The department of forestry had no choice but to drop flame retardant chemical on the few historical buildings and communities in the very remote region, then let the rest of the Yukon and Forty-mile area go up in flames.  What was left in the end was a standing dead forest that you can see in the background of my pictures.  It was even worse when I first came out to Chicken with my then boyfriend (now husband) ten years ago.  You didn’t dare wear white socks or light-colored pants.  You would be throwing them away later from the charcoal stains.

My husband Ray, and My father-in-law Shep, standing near one of our few big trees. You can see the ground cover we have gotten to come back in the foreground.

Now that we are ten years in and have a cabin built, we have been slowly coaxing the boreal forest back to life, planting native trees and encouraging ground cover to come back.  But we always try to get out to the cabin as early as we can in the season to stock pile water.

I will be re-posting my blog about the colorful characters in Chicken, featuring the famous Toad next.

Scribble #1

Here is an Excerpt from a story I finished some time ago:

“So, what do you think, princess?  Can you fix it?” he asked with a laugh.

Silver eyes flashed as she paused in her work.  “Of course I can.  This is easy.  But why do you call me a princess?  Princesses in the books at the library wear big dresses and go to dances and do magic.  I’ve never worn a dress in my life.”  He laughed out loud at her honesty.  She was quite the little character.

“Maybe princesses do more than wear dresses, little one.  And maybe you’re doing a different kind of magic right now.”  She shrugged in response and focused on her task.  Before too long, she began to pepper him with questions about his car.

“I’ve never gotten to work on such a nice car before, though Mr. Hahn has lots of books about cool cars in his shop.  How long have you had it?”

“Not too long princess.  I had a 907 before this one.”  He said with a smile, not sure if she would know what that was.

“You had a 907 before this one?  Why did you get rid of it?  That was a really nice Porsche.  I read in Mr. Han’s magazines that they only made like, 103 of those.” She asked, silver eyes wide as leaned toward him like an inquisitive little bird.

He frowned.  He did not know how to explain it to such an innocent little girl.  He decided to just lie.  “I was driving too fast and I wrecked it.  So, I had to get a new one,” he said simply.

She paused in her work and scrutinized him with her piercing eyes.  She blinked those long, thick lashes a few times and scrunched her perfectly arched dark eyebrows together, and without saying a word, he realized the astute little girl knew he was not telling the truth.  Instead of calling him on it, she asked.

“Why were you driving too fast?”

“I was trying to get away from some really bad people.”

“But when you crashed, didn’t they catch you?” she asked, cocking her head to one side, gazing directly at him. He smiled to himself, once more reminded of an innocent little bird.

“Almost.  I was able to hide until they went away.”

She nodded and then resumed her questioning, still gazing at him. “Why were bad people chasing you?”

He decided to be a little more direct.  He leaned toward her.  She mimicked him, leaning close, thick dark lashes blinking, silver eyes wide and curious.  He was close enough that he could detect the scent of black licorice on her breath.  He definitely could tell now that most of dirt on her face was faded bruises, at least on her cheeks.  But her skin underneath the dirt and bruises was soft and fair, otherwise flawless on her innocent heart-shaped face.  He could not help but think to himself she would be a pretty woman one day.  He was in turn curious to see her response.  He felt wicked, almost like a villain in a fairy tale.  He lowered his voice and said, “Maybe because I’m bad too, and I did something bad.”

She gave him another sharp look, but she did not pull back.  “You don’t look like a bad man.  Not like the guys my mom hangs out with,” she stated bluntly.

He threw back his head and laughed out loud.  He was tempted to reach out and touch this innocent, honest little girl.  He got the impression she would not take it well, she would probably burn him with that hot iron.

“Oh princess, don’t judge people by how they look.  It will get you into trouble someday.”

She bristled at his teasing, her full, pink, licorice-stained lips pursed into a frown.  “I don’t,” she retorted stubbornly, “But you don’t seem like the guys my mom hangs out with.  And they are bad.  They do bad things.  Gross things,” she said assertively with a small shiver and then sat back and soldered a wire.

I have no doubt about that.  He thought to himself.  Who knows what this little girl has seen?  “Princess, maybe there is more than one way to be bad.”  Who would have thought he would be sitting in a small desert town on a Sunday afternoon having a philosophical conversation with a little girl about good and bad?  It made him laugh harder.  He was beginning to wonder if he had slipped into another dimension.

“Can I ask you a question?” she asked suddenly staring down at the part she was working on.  It looked as if she were almost done working on it.  He was impressed by how fast she wired it back together.

He laughed again, “You mean, in addition to all of the other questions you’ve already asked me princess?”

“No, I have a serious question this time,” she said.  She reached for some of the wires that she had pulled off the old wiring harness.  They were lying in a pile on the table, fluttering a little in the afternoon breeze.

Unsure where this peculiar little girl was going with the conversation, he replied, “Sure princess, ask whatever you would like.”

“Did one of those bad people put acid on your wires?”

 

Off the Grid

sign at Tetlin Junction, Alaska Travel Taylor Highway, DM Shepard

In support of the upcoming collaboration between myself and DK, I have decided to repost some of my older blog posts about the cabin in Chicken to give people context about the area. This was one of my first blogs about driving out to Chicken. Ray and I will be making our first “Chicken Run” of the year in two weeks. In contrast to last year, when we saw temperatures of -20 and 4 feet of snow at the cabin the weather looks like it is going to be warm (in the 30’s) and around two feet of snow according to the snow depth maps. I will definitely keep you posted as to what we find.

The cabin at night.

As we make the turn off the ALCAN at Tetlin Junction onto the Taylor Highway, I look over at Ray in the driver’s seat of our Subaru and ask, “So, how many do you think we will see?”

Keeping his gaze focused on the winding, chip sealed road, he drums his fingers against the steering wheel for a moment then makes his wager, “”I’m going to bet 2.”

“I’m going to bet 1,” I reply, as I settle back into my seat.  It’s almost 10 o’clock at night, but the light is just beginning to fade in the land of the midnight sun.  Though it is technically well into spring, the snow is barely melted in this region, and the tourists won’t really begin to show up for another month or so.  Our cabins is a seven hour drive from Anchorage, and we are on the final, lonely stretch.

Taylor Highway Closed

We always make this bet as we turn onto the Taylor Highway, leaving behind the remnants of civilization. Cell phone signals dropped out several miles back, when we passed the Weigh Station about ten miles east of Tok.  Radio Stations? Forget about it.  Too many mountains.  Utility power?  Nope, maybe someday we will put in solar, but only if we can get batteries that are rated down to -70, which this region is known for reaching those temperatures during the winter months.

View from our fire pit. Current temp, about 5 degrees.
Travel Beyond This Point Not Recommended

Here lately you see so many people crowing about how they turn off their cell phones for the night, or maybe for a whole hour for dinner. When we go to our cabin, we are completely off the grid, sometimes for a week or more if we can pull it off. My cell phone becomes nothing more than an expensive camera/clock. Sometimes in the summers, we will bring along a small, portable generator to make ice or run power tools for construction projects, but most of the time we leave it off.  We like the quiet.  The ability to focus and be in touch with our thoughts is what draws us to our cabin and our land.  The guests we bring out to visit love it as well.

We reluctantly bought a satellite phone for emergencies last year.  Mostly because of the aforementioned bet.  It is not uncommon during certain seasons to go a day or more without seeing a single car. If your vehicle breaks down, or you have some other emergency, it can be a long wait or walk back to safety. From October 16-April 1, the road is not maintained, so it is use at your own risk.

Some people are intrigued by the idea of going out into the wilderness the way we do.  Some are appalled.

“What if something happens?  Aren’t you scared?”

My response is that we plan our trips appropriately. We tell people where we are going, and when we will be back.  We don’t take unnecessary risks.  We always keep in mind, that while the back country of Alaska is beautiful, it is at the same time highly unforgiving.

So far, the risks have been well worth the rewards.

Back to the Start

Deep breath, then start typing.  Normally, I write everything on notepads, then I transfer it onto a computer.  A little clunky, I know.  This will be an interesting experiment for me as I start trying to put my random thoughts out there for all to see.  I have always enjoyed reading and writing, but I never really thought much about getting published or whether anyone would like to read what I wrote.  A few years back, I read an incredibly terribly written novel, and I thought, if she can get published, why not me?

I read other books and realized how few of the female protagonists I could truly relate to.  I have been working as either a technician, operator, or an engineer for over 20 years now, and I don’t need a study to tell me there are not many women in STEM careers.  Therefore, there are not many women in books in STEM careers either.  I decided I would try to write some romance and action stories about the female characters I would like to read about.  For better or worse, here is my best attempt.

Meanwhile, I will use this blog to explain a little about how I got to this point.  How did I end up so far from where I started?

It started with the desire to get the heck out of a small town called Victorville, CA.