I truly feel blessed to be able to get off the grid and away from the constant barrage of bad news. For the next three months, Ray and I will be unplugged (with the exception of coming into town for supplies. We are thinking of getting a satellite internet connection since we’ll be gone so much, but we haven’t made any solid plans yet.
Sunset/Sunrise times
This year’s Solstice Noon occurs at 1:43 pm on June 20th. The sun will set at around 12:45, and rise again around 2:45***.
***this is approximate per the sunrise/sunset calendar.
Weekend Plans
This weekend we plan on focusing on the upcoming construction in July. The foundations are almost ready, and we will start building structures for the new cook shed and shower facility in July.
Artist’s Retreat!!!
We’ll also start earth work for future guest cabin. Our dream is to turn our 31 acres into an off-grid artist’s retreat so we can share the beauty and inspiration of the Alaska interior with others.
We also we spend time researching, reading, writing and reflecting. Without the constant rattle and distraction focus and clarity on what truly matters is much easier.
Thanks for reading! My horror novella inspired by my adventures in the backcountry of Alaska is available on Amazon.
Reliable, cost effective and environmentally sustainable energy storage is a key to making alternative energy solutions competitive against other sources for the long term. Solar, wind, hydro, and tidal energy are abundant at times and in certain regions. Without the means to store this energy for when times are lean and make it accessible to all, it is easy to fall back onto fossil fuels.
ALASKA CHALLENGES IN REMOTE LOCATIONS
Which brings me to my upcoming summer project with our new solar kit. For those of you who follow my posts regularly, our cabin is in a remote region of Alaska, subject to extreme temperatures. The record low for Chicken is -76. The highs can easily hit 80-90 in the summer months, where our ridge easily gets 21+ hours of sunlight a day at its peak.
BATTERIES AND PHOTOVOLTAIC SYSTEMS
TAKING ADVANTAGE OF SOLAR ENERGY
Battery longevity and efficiency is of extreme importance. Batteries are expensive parts of a photovoltaic system. They are, at their heart, simple devices. By definition, a battery is two dissimilar metals immersed in an electrolytic (typically acid) solution. This creates a chemical reaction. They are also (depending on their construction), highly corrosive and toxic waste in landfills. It is important that as we develop alternative energy storage solutions, we maximize storage efficiency to minimize waste and reduce cost. The extremes in temperatures that I mentioned above can degrade a battery’s life, requiring it to be replaced more frequently, thus adding more waste to our landfills and requiring more mining of rare earth minerals.
I will be conducting a study of our system, keeping track of
load, temperatures, charge and charge times, acid levels and specific gravity. I
will track this information as a means to help manufacturers and researchers
refine their processes to create energy storage solutions that can better
withstand extreme environments and improve alternative energy accessibility for
all.
This will be the first of many projects we hope to bring to life out in the 31 remote acres in the 40-Mile District of Alaska. Thanks for reading. In my next blog, I will discuss a little more in-depth on the details of our system design and capacity.
Summer of 2020 IS GOING TO BE AN ADVENTURE!
HOLD MY BEER!
Thanks for reading. I plan on posting many of our adventures this summer and beyond as I move into my next phase of my life and career. In the meantime, if you are looking for a fictional Alaska adventure, The Dark Land is available on Amazon
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It seems like for everyone I talk to, 2019 has been a
dumpster fire. I know that I will be happy to see this year in the rearview
mirror. For those of you who know me/follow me closely, you know that I have
struggled with MS and other health related issues this year. Then in August,
the company I worked for announced that they were selling our business unit.
These last few months I have spent a lot of time reflecting on my career path
and what I want to do going forward.
It surprised a lot of people, given that I’m only 41, that I
opted to package out. Instead of applying for a job with the new operator, I
requested to be severed. For me, the choice was simple. This is an opportunity
to make a deep change in my life. I have explained in my blogs, that I have
always enjoyed writing. I enjoy engineering and math just as much. In the last
few years, I have felt that my job was taking me down a path that led me away
from what I enjoyed doing. I was no longer an engineer, I was pushing paper and
collecting a paycheck. Meanwhile my blood pressure was ratcheting up, as I argued
against decisions I disagreed with, only to get overridden. The stress seemed
to eat away at my very being. The only thing making my job worth doing was supporting
the great technicians and operators I work with.
I hinted over this weekend of exciting announcements to come. I’m still waiting for my final severance date (I’ll get my letter in the mail Friday—I’ll be sure to let you know). But in the meantime, Ray and I are laying our plans for the future.
Monday Ray and I will be putting the down payment for our
first solar kit out at the cabin. We’ll be sharing pictures and posts as we
design and install our new solar panels, inverter, charger and batteries. We’re
looking forward to the greater flexibility as we stay out at the cabin for
longer in the summers and plan out adventures.
We also have some major construction projects in the works
for the summer of 2020. We poured our foundations this past summer, but in
July, we will be erecting a new cook shed and shower/sauna. It feels a little
weird, bringing creature comforts to our cabin that has been rustic for so
long. But as we transition from city living to Chicken these are changes that
will make living off-grid more convenient.
We also plan on taking a few months and driving the ALCAN (a
trip I have never done before). We’re going to do an extended road trip to
visit friends in the lower 48. As some of you may have noticed, Ray and I have
kind of an obsession with old ghost towns. Expect to see lots of pictures and
historical blog posts about our adventures.
We’re not entirely sure what the long term will bring, but I am excited for this leap. I plan on focusing on my writing in 2020 and hopefully bringing my fiction works one step closer to getting published. I also hope to get my own engineering projects/start-up company off the ground. I’m grateful for this deep-sea change. This is a true, once in a lifetime opportunity, and I look forward to sharing our plans and schemes with those of you who keep following me.
A side-trip on our visit to Dawson as part of my research for my Historical Fiction novel, A Drink of Darkness
There were two ways to get to the Klondike goldfields during the stampede of 1898. There was the treacherous and shorter (by mileage) overland route from Skagway over the Chilkoot or White Passes, then float the Yukon River from Bennet Lake through Carmacks up to Dawson. This route took longer (4 months on average), and could only be done when the passes were open. It could also only be done by those willing and able to pack the 1000 lbs of gear necessary to cross the Canadian border. The passes were too steep for horses, so the gear had to be packed by hand. It took a person on average 40 trips to lug the gear the 33 miles over the Chilkoot to Lake Lindeman.
Avalanches were common. Once the prospectors crossed White Pass, they built boats at Bennet Lake, the headwater of the Yukon (or Lindeman if they took the Chilkoot) . According to the RCMP (Royal Canadian Mounted Police) over 7,000 boats, some of questionable seaworthiness were built and launched in the spring of 1898. But it was not smooth sailing. They faced the White Horse Rapids. Their choices were to either to shoot the rapids, or pack their gear around. After many rafts and canoes were lost in the rapids, the RCMP decreed that women could not shoot the rapids, but had to hike around. Klondike Kate (mentioned in a previous blog) is famous for having defied this order. She hopped into a raft at the last minute before they could stop her.
The longer route was by steamer from Seattle to St. Michael, then by Sternwheel (Paddleboat) up the Yukon to Dawson. The total trip usually took about 8 days (4 days travel up the Yukon). But in the summer of 1898, the year my main character Helena travels to meet her husband in Dawson City, water levels were notoriously low. The boat trip up the Yukon stretched into over a week. The boats ran out of food as they slogged the 1600 miles to the “Paris of the North.” This still seems like better option compared to 4 months on the trail, but it was expensive. Not only did you still need to have the 1000lbs of gear, you had to be able to afford a ticket on the boats. They were often overcrowded, dirty, unmaintained and got stuck often in the slow, muddy Yukon River.
They also could only run when this massive Northern River was free of ice. Break-up in the spring of 1898 (not necessarily ice-free) was May 8. The first paddlewheels did not get to Dawson until June. The last steamer out with a load of gold was mid-September. Freeze-up was October 31. This was a narrow travel window for those coming to Dawson in the pursuit of gold.
On our recent trip to Dawson we decided to take a tour of
the Sternwheel Graveyard. We heard about it only by chance as we were researching
things to do in Dawson. It is not located in Dawson City, but on the West side
of the Yukon River. To get to the graveyard from Dawson, take the ferry across
the river to the Yukon River campground. You’ll have to park then walk through
the campground, then north along the river bank.
This site by Murray Lundburg has comprehensive information
about the Sternwheeler Graveyard. Murray has been visiting the site since 1990
and has complied pictures of the decay of the wreckage over the years. He has
also done a great job of putting together the known history of the site. Rather
than try to duplicate his work I have included his link below:
You can see information about the 7 ships that were originally believed to have been abandoned at the site, along with an original picture from 1938 of the Julia B (the sternwheeler closest to the Yukon). He also includes a comprehensive list of the boats that travelled the Yukon and the dates they were believed to have been in service. For the purpose of my story, I used the Alice, as I know from references this boat brought the Sisters of St. Ann to Dawson in August of 1898 to work for Father Judge as nurses at St. Mary’s hospital.
Here our some of our photos of the graveyard in August of
2019:
View from the bank of the Yukon:
If you are heading to Dawson and would like a unique
activity, I would highly recommend this excursion. As you can tell from these
pictures, this is a hazardous location with unstable structures. If you chose
to venture forth, please do not enter or climb onto any of the wreckage or take
“souvenirs.” Sturdy hiking boots are highly recommended.
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The “Tisha” of Robert Speck’s book published in 1976
Some of you who follow my posts about our cabin in Chicken, AK may have read the book, Tisha, written by Robert Speck. This book was loosely based on the life of a real school teacher in Chicken, AK. Her name was Anne Hobbs Purdy.
She wrote her another, based more on her time spent teaching in Eagle, titled Dark Boundary. This was published in 1954, and gave a much darker version of experiences as a school teacher in the territory.
Both versions are worth a read, and from talking with old timers in Chicken, Anne was quite the character. She was born in Missouri on November 10, 1901 and died in Dot Lake, AK on April 15, 1987. The Purdy family still owns property in Chicken. While I will be posting pictures of the “old town” of Chicken, I will not be posting any pictures or locations of the current Purdy family property out of respect for their privacy.
I put together this blog post for those of you who are fans of the book Tisha, but have never made it to Chicken. This will also be the setting for some of my future stories in my horror series (should it become one-rap wood!).
We’ll start the tour with Jack Strong’s house. He had the contract to deliver mail and supplies to Chicken. He is the one who also “delivers” Anne to Chicken at the beginning of the story. His house was the largest and nicest in Chicken, also doubling as the General Store. As you can see in the picture, it has subsided over time into the permafrost.
Maggie’s Roadhouse was the meeting Place for the town, where everyone would come together to gossip. It was also where they would get together after the dances on Saturday nights.
So if you have read Tisha, you know that Maggie was a busy-body and a trouble maker. She didn’t like that Anne had taken in two native kids. She also didn’t like that Anne and Fred (a native man) were flirting with each other. As you can see here, she would have had ample opportunity to spy on Anne at the school house. This plays into several key scenes in the novel Tisha.
Toad is featured in a couple of my blogs. He was one of the last residents to live in Chicken full time before it was finally completely abandoned. He worked for Fairbanks Exploration and stayed on as a caretaker when they pulled out in the 1960’s. He eventually moved to a different place a few miles outside Chicken. Last year he moved to Tok. Only one person lives in the “Old Town” Of Chicken during winter as a caretaker now to prevent vandalism.
Thanks for reading! My horror series The Dark Land and The Devil’s Valley, based on the Athabascan legend of “the People with Tails,” is available on Amazon.
Our second trip to Kennecott Mines National Historic Landmark and Wrangell-St. Elias National Park.
In 2007, I made the decision to pack up everything I had and take a job in Alaska working a rotational job in Prudhoe Bay, Alaska. I didn’t know anyone, and had no idea what I was getting into. I moved from an office job in Seattle to a field-based job in the arctic. I can say, without a doubt, it absolutely was the best decision I ever made. And not only for myself, but for others I have met along the way, there is an enduring mystique about the land that is still dubbed: The Last Frontier. Wherever I go, I get peppered with questions about what it is like to live and work in Alaska. Some of my novels are based on adventures I have had along the way, but others are based here in the 49th State. While I have lived here almost 13 years now, I am amazed at how much I still don’t know about one of America’s youngest states.
My Alaska Adventures have become the inspiration for so much of my writing (as you’ll see below), and yet I am blown away by how much I don’t know.
A particular piece of writing advice that writers hear time
and time again is:
WRITE WHAT YOU KNOW.
I think we can all agree that this is a bit misleading, and
really, not very well defined. My perspective is that it means to write from
your life’s experiences and passions. When George Orwell wrote the War of the
Worlds, I don’t think he knew first hand anything about alien invasion, but he
understood people. Ernest Hemmingway wrote incredible novels based on his life
experiences as an ambulance driver during WWI. Charlotte Bronte wrote
passionate Gothic Romance based on her hardships and privations as a child
raised in a poor, rural English parish in the mid-1800’s.
Historical Fiction has always intrigued me, as well as historical non-fiction. It is fascinating to read about characters from the past and imagine what their lives must have been like. We can’t really KNOW what it was like to live in their time and walk in their shoes, but we can research and Imagine.
In my quest to write a series of both contemporary and
historical fiction about Alaska, I have been visiting some of the lesser known
historical sites. This trip, we went back to Kennecott, AK. This copper mine in
Wrangell-St. Elias National Park operated from 1911-1938. It produced 200-300
million dollars’ worth of copper and silver (4.5 tons of copper ore). Owned by
the Kennecott Syndicate, a corporation formed between the Havemeyer,
Guggenheim, and J.P. Morgan Families, it operated 363 days a year. A 96-mile
long railroad project costing $23 million was built from Cordova to Kennecott
to bring the ore to market. Deemed the Can’t Run and Never Will Rail Road
(Copper River Northwestern Railroad—CRNW RR), it ran until 1938, until the mine
was shut down.
My series a Copper Year is set in the roaring 20’s. It’s a
story about a young woman who survived the horrors of WWI France and travels to
Kennecott to work as a nurse. The novels are about her journey from Europe,
across America to Alaska. It then will detail the life of a single, female
nurse in a camp dominated by men. The societal expectation being that she
wouldn’t stay single long. She would find a good husband and settle down,
putting her career aside to raise a family (apparently, they had a rule that
once a woman got married, she could no longer work). No one really takes into
account if that is what she really wants.
This story was inspired by two ideas. One my own work
experience as a woman in engineering working almost always only around men.
Then also my research into the archived pictures of Kennecott. While most of
the women who got married were named in the photographs, the unmarried nurses
were just labeled “unknown nurse.” It was a symptom of the time in which they
lived. They weren’t considered a critical part of the story until they found a
man to marry. Otherwise, they merely faded into obscurity. This gave me the
idea for creating a romance around one of these “unknown women.”
Part of my research has been to dig into not only the photo
archives and written history, but to take actual trips out to Kennecott and do
tours to learn what life was like for the people who lived and worked at the
mines. It is fascinating to learn about day to day life at the mining
operation. The park rangers give daily talks about camp life and the people who
lived here.
We have also taken multiple tours of the Concentration Mill,
Power Plant, and Leeching Plant. These tours can be booked through St. Elias
Alpine Guides. They do a great job explaining some of the back history of
Kennecott and the purposes of the various buildings.
While my story A Drink of Darkness is currently set in
Dawson City, I plan on expanding the series to Kennecott eventually (rap wood
it gets that far). In this case, I will have my immortal vampires Eve, Bianca
(and others) who masquerade as “Ladies of the Night,” showcase the rowdy town
of McCarthy. Sitting at the toe of the root glacier, 5 miles away from
Kennecott, it was also the turnaround point for the CRNW Railroad. Kennecott
was a “Company Town,” owned by the Syndicate, with strict rules, and
technically dry. McCarthy was a boomtown that sprung up to cater to the whims
of the working men. Complete with bootlegging and brothels, a man could work
months for his pay check, walk to McCarthy, then be back at the mines in a week
or two, having blown it all.
My contemporary horror novella (currently available on Amazon), The Dark Land is also set in the area. This novel was inspired by the remote wilderness areas of the park, and local Athabascan Legends.
Thanks for reading. Stay tuned for more book reviews and Alaska adventures!
As promised, a blog post about the interior of Alaska, the location of our cabin, and the inspiration for several of my stories. In particular, my horror novella, The Dark Land, inspired by the Legend of the Cet’aeni or the “People with Tails.”
Since the white man’s “discovery” of the land the Aleut’s call Alyeska, there has been an intense fascination with this broad expanse of wilderness. Most people who visit barely scratch the surface, never understanding the true scale and depth of Alaska’s land. They stick to the tour buses, enjoying the safety of what my husband and I call the “look, but don’t touch” Alaska. These tourists will never experience her harsh bite. They can’t comprehend that behind her glacial beauty, beats a cold and unyielding heart that has lured many to a premature end.
None understand this better than the native peoples who populated this vast land long before the Europeans set foot here. Many distinct tribes and cultures lived within Alaska’s varied terrain. The subject of the different tribes and languages could take up multiple blog posts and books. If you are ever visiting Anchorage, a great stop is the Alaska Native Heritage Center:
They break down the enormous state into the 5 distinct regions of tribal peoples. It is a great place to get a better understanding of how these people lived and thrived in Alaska
As mentioned, most tourists see the southeast of Alaska. they take a cruise from Seattle or Vancouver up the inside passage. They see the land of the Haida and the Tlingit. Tall trees and totem poles. Calving glaciers and orcas.
They might head further north to Anchorage, or Los Anchorage as some of us who live here call it. Alaska’s largest city of roughly 300K people might seem paltry to outsiders, but it is a behemoth considering almost half the state’s population lives in one city. There’s another joke about Anchorage, “Alaska, 20 minutes from Anchorage.” Tourists who only come to Anchorage haven’t seen the real Alaska, they’ve just been brought here to spend money.
Some brave tourists venture into the interior, taking tours of Denali National Park and Fairbanks. Few tourists venture into the Eastern interior. Those who do might go visit Kennecott Mine, inside the boundaries of Wrangell-St. Elias National Park, the largest US National Park by area. A few more might make the drive up the Alcan, visiting the Canadian cities of Dawson or Whitehorse, then visiting Chicken and Eagle on the US side of the border, all remnants of the great Yukon/Klondike gold-rush. Gold is still actively mined in these regions to this day. For those of you who regularly follow my posts, you’ll know this is where the cabin is located, just outside of Chicken.
The interior is the land of the Athabascan. Most people would think that the North Slope/Arctic region would be the coldest, but that is not the case. Without the warming/cooling effects of the ocean, the interior experiences the extremes of weather. The Alaska interior holds the record low in Prospect Creek, AK at -80F (-62C for my friends on the Celsius scale). The record low in Chicken, AK is pretty close, at -76. The record high was at Ft. Yukon (north of Fairbanks) at 100F.
The native Athabascans adapted to their landscape and extreme environment and carved an existence out of the harsh beauty.
The fierce, tenacious tribes of Athabascans that inhabited this particular region of wild rivers and harsh extremes were the Ahtna and Tanana.
The first attempts by Europeans to navigate and chart the copper river were met by fierce resistance from the Ahtna and Tanana. The parties disappeared, never returning.
It wasn’t until 1885, Lt. Henry T Allen and two other men set off from Portland, OR with explicit orders to map and navigate the Copper and Tanana Rivers and bring back information on the peoples living in the region. A link to information on this expedition is below.
The Ahtna, like all people have myths and legends. Legends of the Gguux (pronounced gookh) that pull people into the water to drown. Stories of the “Hairy Man” much like the Bigfoot or Yeti of other cultures.
But the tale I will spin for you is based loosely on the legend of the Cet’eani or “People with tails.” My husband has done a great deal of hiking and skiing in the back country of the Copper Valley and Wrangell-St. Elias National Park while his brother had a homestead in Slana. This story is loosely based on some of his experiences.
There are multiple iterations of this tale, as it varies depending on location, tribe and dialect.
A young hunter set forth from the village in late winter to provide fresh meat for his family. When he did not return, a party went out searching. They tracked his steps some distance from the village to a valley that was seldom explored. It was whispered that evil spirits dwelled within, lurking in caves and trees. Creatures with tails.
The hunters entered with caution. Coming over a ridge in the dark, they saw a bonfire in front of a cave. Creatures with tails frolicked in the firelight, playing a game, kicking the young hunters head to and fro. The hunters waited until the creatures retreated to their cave for the night. They sealed the entrance with rocks and lit it on fire. They went back to the village and warned others of what they had seen.
Knowing they had not truly vanquished the Cet’aeni, they made the valley forbidden, calling it the “Dark Land.”
As I get ready to self-publish my horror/paranormal romance novel, the Dark Land, set in the back country of Wrangel St. Elias National Park, I’ll be doing more posts about this particular region of Alaska, and our plans for our cabin this summer!
Here is the beginning of a horror story inspired by the interior of Alaska where we have our cabin. Let me know what you think. I previously just published the very beginning. Here is the intro and the first Chapter. This is still a rough draft, but I am having a lot of fun with it.
The Headless Valley
Bryan took another swig of the Wild Turkey from the metal flask. Shoving it back into the cargo pocketof his camopants, he coughed and examined the track in the half-frozen sprucebog. He re-adjusted his pack; freeze-dried ash, willow and spruce needles crunching under his boots as he gazed into the mist.
Where’d that stupid fuckin’ moose go?
He mumbled to himself, breath making a white vapor in the early evening air. He gripped his rifle harder, fingers aching in the bitter chill.
Better not have fuckin’ lost it. Knew I never should have left my four-wheeler. He wheezed and blew a snot rocket, then tugged his camopants over his pot belly.
His head whipped at the sound of snapping branches further down the narrow valley.
It’s almost dark, but fuck it, I’m not going back empty handed after coming all this way. He said to himself, creeping along through the thick brace of willow and spruce.
A chill went up his spine and his skin prickled under his woolen shirt as he came into a misty clearing. A cave gaped in the hillside above. The dark opening like the slack jaw of a drunk whore with no teeth. A sensation of being watched intensified.
I—I should go back to Miss Penny’s old lodge. It’s late—I don’t want to hack up a moose tonight anyway. I’ll try again tomorrow. Plenty of dumb moose out here. Don’t need this one. He thought, guts churning as his eyes searched the thick mist.
The spruce bog came to life around him in the rapidly dimming light. Silence broken by the snapping of branches and crunching of leaves. Yellow eyes, standing a little shorter than himself, appeared in every direction. Dark shapes forming in the silvery shadows.
“Fuck you! I’m leaving!”he shouted, voice cracking as a stream of wetness trickled down his leg to his boots. Urine hot in contrast to the clamminess of his skin. He stumbled back, bumping into spruce trees, their spiny frozen needles clawing at his all-weatherjacket and pants. Willow branches whipped his face, knocking his knit cap to the ground and exposing his nearly bald head to the freezing air. Breathing hard, he continued to try to push his way back out of the clearing.
The yellow eyes grew larger as they drew closer. He fired his rifle, discharging every bullet. Gunfire split the air, mingling with the rising sound of branches cracking. Boot catching on a hummock of moss, he sprawled backward rolling against his heavy pack, limbs flailing like a turtle. The useless rifle flew from his hands. His final scream cut short as the yellow eyes hovered above.
Rosamunde’s Journey
Rosamunde
slogged through the hard-packed snow, the Iverson’s cozy roadhouse long behind
her now. Heavy frost and snow graced the bare branches of spruce, willow and
alder. The skeletal limbs shuddering from time to time in the later winter
breeze. Her breath came faster, leaving frost around the mouth and nose of her
gray facemask as she focused on sliding one ski in front of the other. The
scraping sound against the snow as she built a steady rhythm echoed in the
otherwise silent boreal forest. As she found her stride, digging each pole into
the trail created by the arctic cat by Dick just a week before, she was able to
forget about the heavy straps of the pack digging into her shoulders, and the way
the belt pinched the tender skin of her hips as she dragged the sled along
behind her.
She
looked up at brilliant azure late winter sky. The blinding yellow sun hung just
above the trees. Ice crystals hung in the air, creating a shimmering sundog.
She wanted to stop and admire the beauty, but she needed to keep moving. A
clear cloudless sky on a day like this meant one thing, a bone-chilling cold
night. The sooner she got to the lodge and got a fire started, the better.
As
she built a steady rhythm, her mind began to wander. At least I don’t have to break trail. Then she shuddered at the
reason why she didn’t have to break trail. Dick had made multiple trips to Miss
Penny’s old lodge in the last few weeks. First to retrieve her body after he
and Ulrik had found her mauled and delirious on the floor. And then another
trip last week to clean up the mess and lock everything back up.
Why did she come out here alone? Rosamunde
asked herself, chest aching not only from the subzero temperature as she gulped
air, hauling her heavy load, but from her thoughts of Penny’s death. Why didn’t she tell me she was coming out
here to look for Bryan? I would have come with her. Maybe I could have helped. She
closed her eyes for a moment, gliding along. She thought of the last entry in Miss
Penny’s old diary, dated the night she was probably injured. Her desperate
longing to find her son echoed in every word she wrote. It ate at Rosamunde
that the older woman had faced it alone. Not only that, there was the letter,
written on simple hospital stationary just before she died, asking Rose to come
out here and try to find his remains.
Bryan’s remains.
The
thought made her shudder. They had all grown up out here together at the lodge.
Though Bryan had sometimes made her life miserable, no one deserved to die like
that. And he wasn’t the only person she knew who had disappeared out here. While
Miss Penny had adopted and fostered scores of abused kids like Rosamunde, Bryan
was Penny’s only flesh and blood son. It had been two years since Bryan had
disappeared into the Wrangel-St. Elias back country on a hunting trip, vanishing
without a trace. Miss Penny had been crushed. The only initial clues had been
his sleeping gear left behind at the old lodge.
Then
last September, the Alaska State Troopers caught some teenagers in McCarthy joy
riding in his four-wheeler. They led the police to where they’d found it parked,
out by a dry campsite, down by Dan Creek. Beyond that, the trail went cold
again. In such a large, uninhabited region, no one had the resources to scour
the back country for a young man everyone was sure was dead. Not to mention he had
been such an asshole when he was alive, no one terribly missed him anyway. No
one except for his mother.
A
rustling in the trees louder than the sound of her skis scraping along the snow
made her pause. Her hand dropped to her pistol at her waist as her eyes scanned
the frozen understory of the forest. A pair of eyes blinked at her, a furry
face blending seamlessly with the ice and snow. The large cat moved its head
again, giving away its location.
Rosamunde
gripped her pistol. The lynx blinked again, eyeing her and cocking its head to
the side. She expelled her breath in a long white cloud that froze instantly in
the subzero air. The cat already had its dinner hanging limp in its large
jowls. The white snowshoe hare, the large feline’s favorite prey, had been too
slow today. The lynx eyed her again, then slinked away into the brace of spruce
and willows, padding gracefully on top of the snow with its huge paws that
acted as natural snow shoes.
The
forest grew quiet once more. She shook her head as a new chill went down her
spine. The hair stood up on the back of her neck and she looked around,
scanning the snowy wood for other signs of life.
You’re just spooked. Yeah, something
could be out there, just like that lynx, but you need to keep moving. It’s
going to get really cold as soon as that sun sets. You need to get to the old
lodge before dark. Edna said there’s plenty of wood, but you need to bring it
in from the shed. Still, why do I feel like I’m being watched?
Rosamunde
adjusted her face mask and goggles against the brutal cold and checked her
compass in the alpine glow. Miss Penny’s
old lodge should only be a few more yards, she thought to herself, snapping
it close again and clipping it back to her jacket. The snowy boreal forest faded
into soft shades of violet, navy and lavender as the sun dropped below the tree
line. The black spruce trees casting long shadows all around, creating sinister
shapes on the gleaming snow. Doubt set in as she shivered, the sweat permeating
her underlayers.
Why am I doing this? Following the
last wishes of an old woman who was probably hallucinating when she died? Rosamunde
asked herself for possibly the hundredth time today.
Because she loved you, Rose, the
voice in her head scolded. She was the
only person who ever loved you. It’s the least you can do after everything she
did for you.
She
thought back to the funeral last week and her encounter with Aaron, when he had
given her the diary.
“Hey
there beautiful,” he’d said as she stood by the closed casket, gazing at the
pictures of Penny and all of the children she’d adopted or fostered over the
years, including herself and the man who spoke to her now, Aaron.
Before
she had even turned around, her skin was already crawling at the tone of his
voice. “Hi,” she replied, wiping her eyes with a shaking hand as she took a
step back. Already he’d moved in far too close for her comfort. The smell of
his cheap cologne overpowering the heady scent of lilies and roses arranged around
the casket.
“Look,”
he said, running a hand through his thin, fine brown hair. His beady blue eyes
scaled up and down her black sheath dress. “I know this must be tough for you, I’m
glad you were able to make it into town on such short notice.”
She
nodded, taking another step back as he made a motion as if to touch her arm. “Yeah,
fortunately they were able to get me on a flight down from Prudhoe, I’m on
leave for the next few weeks.”
“Great,
listen we started going through some things Mary had with her, and I found her
old diary, and a note she wrote when she was in the hospital. It was addressed
to you. Looks like she wrote it just before…” His voice trailed off, and his
eyes slid to the casket.
She
nodded, tears filling her vision again. He pulled a brown leather diary out of
the sports coat of his jacket and handed it to her.
“Thanks,”
she replied, a chill going up her spine as his clammy fingers brushed hers. She
couldn’t explain why she found him so repulsive. Other women seemed to find him
charming. His date hovered nearby, glaring at the two of them, fluffing her
long blonde hair.
“Well
I should be going. See you around.” He said, managing to pat her shoulder. She
shuddered a little as he walked away then chastised herself. He’s never been anything but nice. Sure he
was really creepy as a teenager, but he seems to have grown out of it. She
shook her head at the memories. When she read the diary and the simple letter enclosed
within, she wasted no time making plans to travel out to the old lodge.
Her
long sigh echoed in the air as she kicked off through the hardpacked snow as
she continued along, following the trail made earlier in the week. Under her
parka and multiple layers of gear, sweat trickled down the small of her back
and between the cleavage created by her bra despite the subzero air. Her
shoulders ached from the heavy pack, and the belt attached to her hips continued
to rub as she dragged the small sled through the ice locked boreal forest. Her
lips curled up in a relieved smile as the old wooden lodge came into view. Its
lower windows boarded up with plywood, but the fortunately wooden porch free of
snow. Probably from when Ulrik and Dick
came out to get her. Rosamunde thought, closing her eyes against tears.
Increasing her stride, she quickly crossed the small clearing to the large log
cabin. Dragging the sled up the stairs onto the sturdy porch, the warped wood
creaked as she eased her pack off her shoulders setting it down and looking
around.
She
rubbed her aching shoulders and looked back at the trail she’d made to the deep
snow. At least I made it before dark, she
thought to herself she pulled her pistol from its holster and tugged her
headlamp on over her balaclava. She worked the combination lock on the front
door and heaved it open. Holding her pistol high, she entered and searched the
gloomy interior. Creeping through each room she listened for sounds of
intruders, either animal or otherwise. Satisfied that nothing was disturbed,
and everything was still securely boarded up, she went back into the main area
of the Lodge and lit the ancient propane lantern by the cast-iron wood stove.
The
lantern glowed to life, casting light and shadows around the room. She assessed
the pile of wood next to the stove.
Enough for tonight, and just to heat
this room, and I’ll need
to melt water too. She thought to herself, I should get more before it gets much darker. Who knows how cold it’ll
be tonight and tomorrow. And I’ll need more when I sled out to the service
cabin near Dan Creek. May as well get it now.
She dragged her pack and sled inside, pulling the sled with her food and rifle in the kitchen. She unlashed the rifle from the sled and set it on the rack next to the front door, taking off the safety. She unloaded the dry goods and her packages from the sled, so she could use it to haul wood. Next she wandered over to the other side of the wood stove where the bed platform set back in an alcove. The old wooden platform creaked beneath the weight of her pack. Her gut sank as she spied a sleeping bag with familiar initials embroidered at the bottom: BSC. Next to the platform on the floor sat a-half empty bottle of Wild Turkey. She picked it up with the tips of her fingers and moved it to the counter and the old kitchen. Rosamunde thought back again to the letter Penny had written on her deathbed, tucked into her old diary.
Wow,
Brian really was here. I wonder why Penny thought I could find him when the
troopers couldn’t.
Maybe I can. They don’t really have
the resources to do it. And we all grew up out here. I know the places he might
go. So would Ulrik. Maybe I should have asked him to come along. She
grew warm at the thought of spending the nights alone out her with the tall
handsome dark-haired man she grew up with, who she’d idolized since she was a
girl. She shook her head. No, Ulrik hated
Bryan even more than I did, he would just try to talk me out of it anyway. But
even he would agree with me, this is the best time of year to cross the spruce
bogs. But to I really want to go out to “Headless Valley” alone?
Stop that, that’s just a story
Ulrik’s Nana used to tell us when we were kids. It’s not real.
She eyed the bottle of Wild Turkey again, thinking of Bryan’s constant run-ins with the Troopers and Penny’s desperate wish for him to get sober. She swallowed hard. She saved so many of us, me included, but she couldn’t save her son from his addictions. She deserved so much more. I should have told her how much I loved her. The thoughts swirled through her head as Rosamunde looked around the lodge, taking in the weathered logs and the well-worn chinking. Tears filled her eyes as she noted the cast iron pots, still hung from their familiar nails on the wall. The cabinets that Miss Penny’s father had made by hand still stood against the far wall, Rosamunde had come here just two—Or was it three summers—to help re-paint them. The door to the downstairs bedroom was closed, but she knew that room by heart, having slept many nights there, being rocked to sleep by either Penny or Ulrik or Keira after being rescued from her own broken home. Rosamunde turned back toward the door. Her guts clenched at the sight of the dark stain visible in the lantern light in the middle of the floor. Penny, that’s where she…
Rosemunde
swallowed hard against the lump in her throat, then she squared her shoulders.
Get a fire built, then go get wood and snow for before it gets completely dark.
You can think about Penny, how she died, and Bryan and the plan to find his
remains later. Maybe you can even clean it up later tonight. It’s not like
you’ll have anything else to do other than read a book and sleep after it gets
dark. She drew a deep breath and
turned her attention to the wood stove.
Log
and kindling loaded into the stove, she struck a match, then sat back on her
heels and watched it take hold, crackling and popping as it began to draw. Her
skin prickled on her arms, and she looked around the room, almost as if
expecting to see something watching from the shadows. Stop that, she told herself. You
already checked everything. Go get wood before the temperature drops more. She rose to her feet and went back into the
deepening twilight, taking a pair of old wooden snowshoes from the rack next to
the door and clicked on her headlamp. She made her way around the to the
woodshed on the south side of the lodge, dragging her sled again. She loaded it
with wood twice, floundering in the deep snow. She paused once or twice in her
work, certain she heard a noise coming up the trail. But all she could hear
when she focused was a distant howl of a wolf, or the light breeze rustling
through the forest. Otherwise all was still.
She deposited one load of wood next to the fireplace, then the other load just outside the door to the cabin. She filled buckets with snow and set them on and around the stove to melt. Then she went back out onto the porch, hanging the snowshoes on a hook outside. She glanced around one more time at the empty clearing around the cabin, the woods were nearly completely dark, faint stars beginning to twinkle in the clear cold night above. The antique Coca-cola thermometer next to the door already read 25 below by the light of her headlamp.
Damn, it’s going to be chilly tonight, and it’s not even six o’clock yet.
She
went back inside and bolted the heavy wooden door behind her. She pulled off
her face mask and goggles then her parka and snow pants hung them all on the
sturdy hooks next to the front door. She readjusted her belt with her pistol
over her fleece pants. She yanked off her boots and pulled a pair of thick
socks from her pack along with a clean dry T-shirt and sweater.
I
really need to get out of these sweaty clothes, she thought, shivering in the still chilly cabin.
The fire had warmed things substantially, and her pots of water were melting,
but still cold. I really want to wash up before I put on a clean sweater.
She crouched down to throw a few more logs into the stove and paused, hair
rising on the back of her neck.
There
is a noise coming up the trail, she
realized. She dropped her hand to her pistol at her
waist and glanced at the front window the Lodge, still covered in boards and
plywood. Why didn’t I think to remove the
boards? Her heart pounded faster as the pounding, sliding and heavy
breathing got closer. Hand shaking, she pulled her pistol as heavy footsteps
thumped against the wooden porch and the doorknob twitched.
“Who’s
there?” she shouted. “Identify yourself!”
“Open
up, Rosamund. It’s me, Ulrik.” A deep voice bellowed.
She
re-holstered her pistol and sprinted to the door, hands trembling as she rushed
to unbolt it. Ulrik stood on the threshold, stomping the snow off his heavy
winter boots. His two hulking malamutes sniffed the air behind him as they
wandered the clearing, investigating scents in the snow. She stepped back, heart
fluttering, breath coming fast now as she gazed up at the mountain of a man, gray-brown
eyes blazing as he looked her over through his winter gear. She backed toward
the bed platform, crossing her arms over her chest. He threw back his hood and
tore off his face mask.
“What
the hell do you think you’re doing, girl?” Coming all the way out here?
Alone? This time of year?” He shouted, hands on his hips. His tanned high
cheek bones flushed.
Her
heart sunk at his words. Then her pride flared at the implication in his
comments. Putting one hand on her hip she poked the air with the other.
“What
you mean? You say that like I’m clueless. I’m just as capable in the backcountry
as you are. Hell, you taught me everything I know.” She shouted back. “I
have my pistol. I can defend myself against any predator, four-legged or
two-legged.”
Ulrik
caught his breath at her retort, taking in her flashing hazel eyes and golden
hair in front of the fire as she stood her ground, defiant. “I–I’m sorry.
You’re right. I sometimes forget you’re not like the other women I’ve known, Little
Bird.” He said running his hands through his thick black hair. She pursed
her lips and her porcelain skin flushed a deep rose at the use of his personal
nickname for her.
His
blood ran cold and his hair rose on the back of his neck as a pair of yellow
eyes blinked on the dark bed platform behind her.
“Rosamunde,”
he said dropping his voice and easing his rifle off his shoulder. “Don’t
move. Stay perfectly still.”
Her
pretty hazel eyes widened, but she froze in place. He closed the distance with
a steady slow stride as his eyes adjusted to the dim light. He could now make
out a shape in the sleeping alcove behind her, crouched in the shadows. He
placed his rifle over her left shoulder, aiming for where the baleful eyes
still blinked out of the dark recess.
“When
I count to three, drop to the ground, pull your pistol, okay?” He mouthed,
gazing directly into her eyes. She blinked twice while her full coral lips formed
the word “okay” in return.
One…Two…Three
Hope you enjoyed the beginning of my little story. My next blog post will be the legend for which this post is based, and some of the background information on this region of Alaska. Thanks for reading and stay tuned.
I decided to take a break from writing on this clear cold autumn day to get out and enjoy the beautiful Alaska fall weather. For those of you who follow me regularly, you may be wondering why we aren’t headed out to the cabin. Well, unfortunately, the road to the cabin is closed for the year. We’re busily making our plans for next March, but for this winter, we’ll enjoy activities closer to home.
We decided since the weather was so nice, as previously mentioned, clear and cold, to head down to the small ski town of Girdwood for a hike. We’ve gotten out first snowfall here in south-central Alaska, but it’s not very deep. We wanted to get one last hike in before it’s time to break out the snowshoes and cross country skis. It’s also fall, so the daylight is fading fast. Between now and the winter solstice, we’ll be losing light everyday at a rapid pace.
We drove along the Turnagain Arm (as seen in the above picture). This is a great place to see the bore tide, or to see beluga whales. Directly across the arm (right where the sun is shining), is the small gold rush town of Hope. Both Girdwood and Hope have been inspirations for some of my stories.
We wanted to hike the Winner’s Creek Trail. In the summers, this is a popular hike. It connects from the Alyeska Resort property to the Crow Creek Pass Trail. This trail is part of the original Iditarod heritage trail. For hard-core marathoners, the Crow Creek Pass Marathon is one of the toughest.
When the snow gets a little deeper, we plan on coming back out and exploring some of the cross-country ski trails or snow show trails, but while the snow is still shallow, this was an easy trail with just hiking shoes and poles. At times it was slick and treacherous, as it was hard-packed and icy.
My husband and I truly enjoy disconnecting from the world. This trail is approximately forty-five minutes from Anchorage, but as you can see from the pictures, you feel like you’re in a different world.
As you walk along and soak in the surroundings, you notice more and more details. Animal tracks in the snow pop out at you. This bear has wandered along sometime ago.
I’ve lived in Alaska now for 12 years. Each season has its unique beauty. A different faucet to enjoy, if you just get out and give it a chance. Yes, sometimes that does mean experiencing a little discomfort. I promise it’s worth it.